December 2010
48 posts
hope everyone enjoys new years eve!
while i’ll be working, probably picking up someone’s drink during the ball drop :(
resolution
put my fucking self before others more often.
i need to man the fuck up.
why worry about someone when you don't even make...
just saying.
have you ever thought to yourself
that maybe you’re not deserving of something? maybe you’re just a lucky person. maybe! just maybe, you feel as if that the things that you get aren’t what you should be getting, and other people should be getting them instead. i’ll play my cards right and be the last place; cause shoot, the things i do, ways i live, and attitudes i have on things just make me wonder. why...
mindfucked
right now, because my whole night consisted of me having a lucid dream within a lucid dream within a regular dream. jesus christ.
it's been about 4 1/2 years
since i’ve been here, and i still turn the right faucet knob, assuming it’s going to be hot but instead it’s cold. i don’t understand why it’s still my first instinct; it just is. i still miss japan so damn much.
3 hours
playing in the snow by myself, trying to make a huge snowball! i quit when my joints started to hurt and when i struggled to move the ball. tmrw i will have help though!
on another note, that alone time was pretty refreshing. not waiting for someone to text me, not waiting for someone to message me back on facebook or on aim; it was just me. and it felt great.
the only bad thing, however, is...
gym, work, get fucked up
the routine that keeps me sane. busy busy busy.
i’ll sit down in this chair, refresh pages and scroll up and down randomly on pages that i don’t even care about until my eyes start to drop. why? i would rather fill my mind up with empty actions rather than have thoughts come out, fester and break me mentally and emotionally when i lay down in bed.
i really despise
waking up early.
mo money, mo problems.
i should be sleeping
but i watched The Human Centipede earlier, and i just now found out that there’s going to be a sequel = stokeddd
so according to this website that i saw from i don’t even remember, according to my tumblr, i am a female ranging from 13-17 years of age, and most of the time unhappy and upset. WHAT THE FUCK HAHA
my barrel woman
i think the best part about our friendship is how we can misconstrue everybody’s interpretation of what we are to each other. its funny, makes people jealous for no reason and at the same time drives possibilities of something actually happening with another guy/girl away from us hahahah
progression
“ i’m all about progression and you’ve progressed you got your shit on lock you’re about you “
i am, and i’m fucking doing me. what the hell is so great about this: crying over spilt milk vs. cleaning it up ? someone fucking tell me that. and is there a reason as to defend something that doesn’t want to progress? defend something that doesn’t want...
a pile of bricks
just hit me all at once, not once, but twice. wow.
why you wanna deal with bullshit? why you wanna be hung up on someone that gives you bullshit, doesn’t treat you right, don’t speak real shit and definitely don’t fucking realize what you is?
when you know someone right there can treat you better, make you feel like you the right one, make you feel like you’re needed, and the one that should be there in their life.
what a...
For me.: One thing that really ticks me off: →
juliemarieee:
telling someone else how to live their life/criticizing someone else for the choices they make.
FUCK. If someone likes to have sex all the time, let them. If someone likes smoking weed, let them. If someone likes going to church, let them. If someone likes drinking, let them. If someone wants to…
seeing shit like this makes me feel like there are exceptions in the world...
if i had
to choose a super power, it would either have to be teleportation, or reading minds. i would teleport to anywhere at anytime, to be with someone, to be somewhere to just escape, or to help someone that needed help, regardless if i knew them or not.
and for reading minds? it would make it easier on me for everything. i’d rather learn the truth than digging into learning that i’m just...
learn from your mistakes, maybe you can forgive if you choose to, but never forget. what you go through creates the person you are today; the stronger, experienced, smarter one.
the thing is, i don’t listen to myself! i remember before i was so dumb, i was just telling myself ” its okay, i don’t care about this or that, i just want this to happen, because i know this thing will...
by the way
fuck you too bitch! bombs are about to be dropped, mmmmmm.
winter
ain’t so cold no more. time to look at the greener side of the grass.
that's that shit i'm talking about
where you have friends and friends of friends with friends.
i don't like it at all
when people are so fucking full of themselves. grow the fuck up.
no bullshit though
company right now may save me from doing something really stupid.
but too bad there isn’t any.
its just you and me
tonight baby, treat me right.
$390
spent on you in 2 days. you remember? i try to, its hard though. i miss it though. i’ll spend more again and again.
Your Existing Situation
” Feeling dissatisfied in his current situation and has a strong desire to escape or find an immediate solution. “
right!
carpe noctem
and it begins.
i'm loose with money
when it comes to you, baby. but i’ll blow it over and over because seeing you around more often is nice. sure sometimes, my mind starts racing and things don’t end up at night like how we think they are, but overall, we have the best times ever. you’re always there when you can be, and it’s fine when you aren’t because you’re still on my mind. stressful days...
Love - Musiq Soulchild
love, so many people use...
8th Wonder of the World: Behind Everything. →
dsoriano:
Give me some rope, duck tape, a deflated circular tube, a couple of tires, and a 100-yard field of open space.
Believe it or not. Sometimes I need something more than just a gym. Because a gym isn’t just good enough. Give me a pool. Or the beach. Because in the water, nothing holds me down;…
haha, it’s my getaway too.
kashmeare:
it shouldn’t be this fucking difficult.
It never is. We just make it harder on ourselves.
its cold
the weather the people the thoughts i have and my heart
everything is so damn cold.
8th Wonder of the World: I let my heart grow just... →
dsoriano:
I let my heart grow just as big as a balloon would if you blew air into it. I let it grow as big as it can get, full of love. I tie up the loose end so no love is lost. Then I attach a string around the knot as if the string were my hand. And from there, I see a girl. She is beautiful as anything…
if you’re scared, then you’re not in love. but then again, i wish i...
i wanna be included in your conversation.
so am i in? or am i out?
what is there to think about?
Coney Island - Good Old War
i’ll go...
dear God,
is it so hard to love the way that you want me to?
i don't care
i don’t care, i don’t care, I DON’T CARE.
is what i tell myself all the time to hide the fact that i do. man.
my full name
is the ticket!
my mood
is probably right now the best that it has been in a long while. nice!
- no friday classes next semester - 13 days till my death day, 10 till my death week - gradually not having classes because some are ending early - doing well in most of my classes! - GPA is looking around above 2.5 = just what i need :) - work is going to be an amazing hell, paychecks being hopefully peaking at least 800...
Baby, I Love Your Way - Big Mountain
i can listen...